
This weekend was one of those weekends that didn't really feel like a weekend. Ya know what I mean? It seemed to never stop, and now that baseball season is up and running, the time that I get to spend with Brad is few and far between. I spent most of my weekend dissecting the past week, thinking through the conversations I had had, the people I met with, and asking God to remind me of His goodness, greatness, faithfulness, and truth. I don't talk a lot about my job on here, and it's something I want to keep that way... unless I'm sitting down face to face with you over a cup of coffee... I'd rather not get too personal. However, I do want to be honest with you and let you know that working in ministry isn't a job that you clock in and out of. It's a 24/7 thing. There have been a lot of encouraging things ministry wise these past few months, but also some really tough things as well. This past week was one of those tough weeks. I had to remind myself that I'm just a human, being used by God, to spread His truth and love with those around me. Simple message, but it can easily get tossed out the window in my brain into something way more complex. So often I get into this subconscious mindset that I'm the one responsible for everyone else, and that when something hard comes up, I have to fix it immediately. But luckily, that's not the case, because I would fail miserably if it was on my own works. My sweet husband took me out to dinner on Saturday night when he came home from baseball. We had such a great conversation over dinner. We talked a little bit about work, but mostly about other things. I'm so thankful I married my best friend. I'm so thankful that he's steady as a rock and doesn't waver on anything he knows isn't truth. He knows who he is, and there's nothing more attractive than a confident man, who knows his identity is rooted in Christ. When we were talking about ministry, he gave me the best piece of advice, he said, "Don't worry, the truth and love in Christ will set them free, not you... Not anyone else. Only Jesus. You are only a vessel being used to share the truth and love of the gospel, you're not called to be anyone's Savior." Woah. He's wise. Thank you Jesus for this stable, wise, and grounded man.
